I nestle my head in her fur, breathing in the scent of the
outdoors. In one whiff I smell the air
and the earth. I smell wood smoke and soil. I can smell that the neighbors are
burning their wood stove, and I infer that the rains must have fallen 2 days ago
or more.
Kora, my dog, looks at me somewhat indifferently as I bury
my head in her stomach. She tolerates my strange expression of affection. I suppose she thinks this is her payment for
getting on the bed. After I smell her
fur, she sighs. Now… we are even.
I settle into my spot on the bed watching the sun set behind
the naked winter trees and I smile. Now
I have the full experience of being outside without actually being out in the 19 degree cold. From my dog’s fur I have the “smell-scape” of
my land, and I imagine the smell of my surroundings as I watch the sun set in
this typical Piedmont winterscape sky.
No clouds, only pale blue fading to purple and orange behind a forest of
skeleton trees.
As I watch blue give way to twilight I think about how
grateful I am for the “others.” This whole experience I just described was a
play consisting of non-human actors, described from one human’s lens. Although I thrive on the affection of other
people in my life, I also require life of the other kind. Life of my dogs, life of my garden, life of my
land, life of all the beings big and small that populate this one planet. I am made whole by being amongst the trees,
the soil, and the plants. I am made
whole by an earth that makes me feel different and special.
We are but one species on this planet of many. And yet we naturally gravitate toward a world
that looks like us. We walk the streets
only to see reflections of ourselves differentiated by the grace of genetics and
the gift of varied lighting. But what of the green things, I ponder as I look
out my window… What of the small flying
things, the furry things? What would the
world be like without them? Would we
feel as different, as unique, as special, as human?
And so this night I pray for a world in which we as humans
honor that feeling of “being different” by protecting the “others.” I yearn for a world that appreciates (maybe
even comes to love) nature and its funky smell of wet soil and smoke on dog
fur. I yearn for a world that
acknowledges that our differences, and our very identity, is a product of
comparison. For although we are a mighty
species, our might dies in the absence of brethren.
The sun has now set, and the darkness of the winter moonless
night reminds me of why I appreciate the twilight. It is here, I think to myself, that I remember
where I am going and where I have been. It
is here I find a deeper appreciation for the blue skies of day and the starry
skies of night. Without the contrast I am a 2-dimensional existence. Without these trees, this land, and all the
living biota, I am less of who I could be. And so I say into this starry night,
“May all of us as humans feel truly cherished and special. May we always protect those who are not like
us, human or not… And lastly may we always, always remember our worth as a
product of all lives, big and small.”
In the concept of "interbeing" there is a belief we are interconnected to nature of all things. In this way, our human breath is not separate from a dog’s breath, or the wind. This concept is not so separate from basic environmental science. Quite literally, trees drink our carbon breath, and we drink their oxygen. The sun feeds the grass, feeds the cow, feeds the human, feeds the mushroom, feeds the soil, feeds the grass…
ReplyDeleteThank you for this post Sarah, and asking all of us to study this web deeply, to illuminate the consequences of our actions in the world, and then to serve all beings well. It is our illusion of separateness that is the root cause of our generational problems, like Climate Destabilization—the false delusion of a planet with infinite resources. My spiritual practice is to look deeply into my own root causes of suffering today—greed, hatred, jealousy and delusion—in order to respect and tend to all my Earthly relations as I would my own body.
You inspire me IB. Thank you for your beautiful words my friend.
DeleteLooking forward to reading and reflecting on more posts this year, Sarah. Perhaps a little more cowbell as well. Can never go wrong with a little more cowbell :)
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